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[Aug. 5th, 2006|11:45 am] |
sitting here
thinking deep
looking for a way
but finding no escape
escape for these thoughts
escape from these thoughts
only one thing fills them
and I don't want to flush
flush the memories and thoughts
thoughts of her and me
but obviously we won't be
why can't I divert
forget
move on
change thought
I sit tranquil
nothing matters
the world is still
sounds become noise
noise becomes vibrations
vibrations become images
images that escape
escape from my mind
I try not to let my thoughts fall
but I let them spill
onto the page
showing you my mind
but when true emotions are revealed
those are the ones that when expressed
can be translated into anyones life
people see their thoughts through your escape |
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| Hooray! |
[Aug. 4th, 2006|10:43 am] |
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I get paid today!
so happy
finally getting out of debt
I was getting sick of not be able to eat
I was getting sick of having to put my car in neutral downhill to save gas
I was getting sick of missing a lot of stuff
but it's getting better
I'm happy for that part of life...
but girls...
still...
ehh...
:-\
shit
so it'll balance out...
hopefully I get more good than bad out of the day
<3 |
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| twismy |
[Jul. 22nd, 2006|02:17 am] |
New Job @ Ritz Camera
Currently not allowed @ Mojo Bean (due to bulletin bullshit)
Parents leaving out of town @ Noon
I feel like a greyhound @ the racetrack chasing the rabbit
Haha @ me and my lameness
<3 and ;) @ you |
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| what the fu................ |
[Jun. 26th, 2006|12:37 am] |
alright...so a lot has happened since my last entry...
I no longer work @ Hollister...
that job sucks...
I work at Holy Grounds Coffee Lounge...
but I haven't gotten paid!
wtf??
I no longer live @ home...
Terry (step-dad) is gay...
I live with Nik and Jovan's family...
it's different.
wtf?
I was talking to an AMAZING girl for a while...
but then I guess I did something wrong...
She said she wasn't ready for a relationship...
but then she turns and gets this guy!
wtf?
so recap...
I'm kicked out of my house
I lost the perfect girl
and I have no money...
WTF!???
this sucks...
I'm gonna try to clear it up with a shower and some sleep |
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[Apr. 26th, 2006|02:57 am] |
so I got the new Taking Back Sunday album...
=] it's good!
I also had an interview at Hollister today...
so hopefully I'm working by the week's end
but other than that the only thing I've been able to think about is girls
omg...it's like going through puberty...
I hate how dependant I've become on a woman's touch...
how I long for it...
but I have no one to hold
I feel like such a dog for having all of these thoughts flooding my mind...
but I still give women all the respect they deserve from me
I'm going crazy! |
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[Apr. 24th, 2006|03:17 pm] |
life if confusing...
but I'm sure that is an obvious
I hate desicions
esp. when emotions are involved...ick
I hate feeling like a bad guy when I make a desicion that is good for me...
but that makes someone else sad...
those are the worst!
I hate this daily game we all play
I can't wait to go on tour...then I'll be free
but until then...I must wear this mask that saves feelings
I know that I'm not hideous behind that mask...
I would just not be seen as "such a gentleman"
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[Apr. 23rd, 2006|11:31 pm] |
sometimes the cons outweigh the pros...
but what can you do but do what you must? |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2006|03:17 am] |
I have the biggest fuckin' headache ever
I hope I'm not getting the same problems that my mom had
::knock on wood::
cause she ended up having a brain tumor removed
shit
I hope it's just from staring at this computer screen for too long |
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| so like... |
[Apr. 21st, 2006|01:19 pm] |
I still don't have a job! and it's killing me...
I've been living off of photography and merch tips...
I've been doing alright...but now it's time to pay my bills!
omfg...I'm gonna go bankrupt!
I need a job...like...now! and paycheck like yesterday!
grrr...
well...I'm sure I'll find one soon
other than that...I know really know what else to say...
extreme thing and the battle are soon...those should be fun
and I should be going on a 2 week tour with FM next month...so I'm stoked |
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| been a long time...shouldn't of left you w/o a dope beat to step to... |
[Apr. 20th, 2006|03:47 am] |
it's beena while since I've been on this thing
I've been kind of busy...and kind of lazy...and kind of boring!
I guess you could say that I've just been chillin'
nothing exciting going on with me
just taking a few pictures...click here to see!
I don't have a job right now...so I'm pretty much a bum!
I have no money and my credit cards are almost maxed out!
I need money...bad!
on a lighter note...I've been talking to this girl named O'Brianne...but everyone calls her Obee
she is a really great girl =] she makes me smile...a lot
I enjoy hanging out with her and talking to her
something that kind of went away with my ex...
speaking of which...has been trying to come back into my life
she always wants to hang out and such...
but I'm pretty sure that is pretty much code for having sex...
and I'm not about to let her break me down
not this time...not ever again
she was like a drug...
you know that it's not good for you...
but it starts to take over you...
making your world crumble around you...
there is nothing you can do...
you need your fix...
something so wrong...
but always seems to feel like the only thing that is right...
it makes you feel invincible...
even though it is the very thing breaking you into a million pieces...
I'm glad that I've gotten away
I'm living a lot happier now...
except for the being really broke part
other than that everything else is awesome!
I'm around music all of the time and photography too
I think things are starting to look up =] |
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